Instincted - Intensity

I would be a liar and hypocrite if I say
I'm indifferent to everything that has happened
I know just what I feel, I know how much is real
But don't know how to define it
How to solve it, to decide it, to get involved with

So my dreams fade once more
Can live without them, I can live without
An odd and addicted love
Replacing scars, I'm replacing scars
Past screams out loud
I'm not this crowd

I'm trying to find myself
Inside my weird own cell
One heart is deep bleeding
While other is laughing to me
Sometimes what remains is hate
Of my dear stubborn fate
That gave me those memories
And brought me insecurity
I make mistakes, I know
Don't need disapproval
My ruins are only for me
Nothing holds my intensity
My real friends are so few
It seems like I'm standing still
I'm not who cast the stone
But there're stones coming on me

So my dreams fade once more
Can live with out them, I can live without
An odd and addicted love
Replacing scars, I'm replacing scars
Past screams out loud
I'm not this crowd

I know that I need money
Not only for comfort but to have a plate of food
And a blanket on cold nights
To do what I like, work with what I love, feel peaceful when I risk
And go where I want to be
I would never put it over someone else or over my dreams

I know that I need to have faith
To know how to get up every time I fall
To review all the evil that I can feel
Not to get stuck at the triangle, the lost time, the past
Not to feel sorry for myself
To understand that it lives in me
But I'm able to lose it with the rest

I know that I need someone besides me
Who knows what I want and understands what I need
That has a sober imagination and knows
We’re already born with daring
That is truly and knows love is not a property
I know what I need but I don't know where is it
It’s not because of you but because of me

If you want me alive, let me breath
If you want me alive, respect me
If you want more time, won't find in me
If you want a lie, forget me